selfies from new video lol
I was laying in bed last night after studying for my exam and I thought, you know get some sleep so I can be more aware and focused for my exam. What ended up happening was all these thoughts about the future and all these what ifs came rushing in. And I was doubting myself, I was doubting whether I would be good enough, if i could make my family proud, If i would make it big, what am I going to do when i graduate… and this kept me up. Being alone at night when everything is quiet sucks big D lol excuse my language, but thats what it pretty much is. So I was stressing myself out for no reasoning, and then it hit me… what am I worrying for, i can’t do anything about it, all I can do now is worry about doing the best I can, because the crazy thing about life is you never know what is going to happen, yeah you can go to school and get a career and plan for that but nothing is ever promised.
Life is a surprise of ups and downs, you cant be prepared for it but you can be more resilient to it. So I thought to myself, concentrate now, don’t worry too much about the near future. I’ve come to notice, tell me if im wrong, that if your past sucks then your future is gonna stress you out even more, and the reason I think this, is because those problems in the past is still a problem now and you think it will be a problem later. Which is completely true lol sorry to break it to you but for me its completely true. The past now and the future when you think about it all together is completely draining and exhausting. But if you work on the now the best you can and worry about nothing else, anything can happen in the future. You might be at a bar meet someone and they want you to model for them, or work for them, or you might win the lottery, or you might be dead.
So to all of those who worry and stress out a lot about the future, I know what you go through and since I’m at the point of graduation and i fully understand where you come from and if you doubt me just wait until I do my draw my life video you’ll see. But I’m here to tell you don’t worry about the future, take it one day at a time, concentrate on the present, take in the smell of the air, the environment around you, experience, live the life you have in the now, and i don’t mean party lol do your shit but stop and smell the flowers don’t let the weight of the past and future bring you down cause once negativity is a part of you its a bitch to get rid of.
thumbnails fro my new video